I despise mirrors

What I see I hate 

I hit it, sending cracks running

I think to my self, “this is a more accurate reflection.”

Just like it, I am broken, I am shattered

What do you do with something that can’t be fixed?

Take it to the curb or keep it

Hoping for a miracle that will never come

You can’t escape the monster you have become

The one that warps your view on everything and everyone in this world 

The one that pushes the only people who care about you away

They tell you you’re getting better and in return you flash a reflexive smile

But, in truth, you’re just growing numb to the overwhelming pain

Just floating through life, stuck in your own rage-filled mind 

They say that they can help you, all you have to do is accept and forgive

What if I can never accept?

What if I don’t want to forgive?

All the people who have hurt me

All the people who put a crack my reflection

I hate

I hate them just like I hate what I got burdened with

You whine about not getting a better grade in school

You bitch about your parents not buying you what you want

Fuck you

You think you know what life is 

You think you’re mature and deserve respect because you smoke or you drink or you’ve slept around

Wake-up. You’ve been through nothing.

I’m done pretending

This is my life

I’ve been in pain for so long, I can’t even remember what true happiness feels like

I’ve kept my mouth shut so many years 

I’m choking on the words I never said

My body is covered with scars, inside and out

Some from myself, some from others

Each a bright reminder of how broken I am

So, next time you go to complain about something meaningless 

Think about it

Then, don’t do it.