Have any of you out there felt emotional pain so high it takes your breath away? Like something inside of you is squeezing your lungs so tight, every inhale burns. Everything around you feels as though it’s crumbling, but instead of things hitting the floor, it’s you. You find yourself crumpled on the ground, your focus blurring so you just close your eyes, hoping that when you open them again, everything will be like it used to be. You know that hope is stupid. After all, nothing can really be the same. Things have changed. You have changed. So, that hope is pretty pointless, but you still hope for it for some reason. I guess that’s what really severe pain can bring out. The compulsive urge for things to be better, and since we can’t tell the future, we think about the past. Whatever happiness we remember feeling, in the present moment of sadness, we just want that happy feeling back.

I’m feeling that high emotional pain tonight. My lungs are actually aching and I don’t have enough energy to cry. I hate when it gets this bad. It makes me feel so alone, like words are my best friends. I guess that’s why I’m writing. I don’t want anyone who’s felt like this or is feeling like this to think they’re alone.