You must overcome the pain in your chest
For your dreams to finally become real
That’s easier said then done
I’m still trying to figure out how I even feel

Bending over backwards
Holding my breath
Waiting for the picture to face forward
Shaking at the thought of seeing it clearly

I’ve watched experiences pass me by
Like trains on the subway
Something always holding me back on the platform
Holding me back from jumping on

That something has many names
Some more specific than others
I can’t keep forcing blame
Not on myself. Not anymore

Instead of eating them away
For the choices they made
It eats me away constantly
Piece by piece and day by day

I’ve watched experiences pass me by
Like trains on the subway
Something always holding me back on the platform
Holding me back from jumping on

I’m forcing myself to break free
From the things that hold me back
Even if I have to break my own wrist to escape their grasp
I’m getting on that train

©Jessi Wilson