Self Love

How do you tell someone you’re in love with them?
I don’t know the answer to this question. I’m reading a book right now where society believes love is a disease that drives you to madness. Never thought I’d actually understand that perspective. I don’t think I’m ready to talk about my personal love experience, so I’m just going to talk. I think a lot of people, especially young people, who are different or have “disabilities”(I hate that word), believe that they aren’t capable of being loved. I hate this. I know how it feels because I believed it my whole life, even more so from the age of 11 to 16. I still do feel this, and I have to force myself to push that idea out of my mind. It’s nothing but inner-demons talking. And they are NOT real. They are nothing but your insecurities; insecurities that our judgmental society has driven into you. God though, their roots are deep. I personally struggle immensely with feeling like I’m not enough, not even for myself. I’m trying to work through this, but it’s very hard. I think when you gain/regain your confidence, those voices in your head that tell you you’re not good enough, not pretty/handsome enough, not “normal” enough, all those voices will fade away. That’s what I’m working for. That’s what I want.

Is It Selfish?

Is it selfish to want to know how it feels to have someone want you and only you?Someone who wants be with you or talk to you whenever they can. Someone who, in their eyes, you’re perfect. Someone who’s always yearning to touch you, to kiss all of your scars. Someone who loves saying your name or hearing your laugh. Someone who knows you better than anyone else, all your highs and lows, all your stupid little habits.
If it is selfish, then I guess I’m selfish.