Poetry

I Hope Your Proud

~ Jessi ~ 1 Comment
You think you know me
But you don’t know shit
I’m not the person I used to be
This world has thrown me into a pit
 
Slam the door
Turn off the lights
You’ll find me in the corner
Fighting for my life
 
My cells burn with so much hate
If you catch me smiling at you
You’ll know it’s fake
 
I hate you
I hate you all
I can’t believe I ever called you my friend 
When I needed someone the most
You walked away with a grin
 
Now I’m here trying to find myself again
Trying to forget my past
Feeling my life slipping from my fragile grasp 
And I ask myself……
 
How did I get this broken?
How did I let this happen?
I have left so many words unspoken
They consume my thoughts ever second
 
No sleep for the tired
No rest for the restless
I think I might be already be gone
Just a shell filled with sorrow and fired rage
 
Everyone who’s ever hurt me
Who’s ever told me I had nothing to offer this damned world
I hope you’re proud
Of the things you’ve caused
Let me be the first to give you a round of applause
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Story of a Girl

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Flying so high
Feet can’t touch the ground
Hoping not to crash
As I gaze dreamily all around

The sky ignites
Turning to fire
But it’s too late to look back
As the wind carries me higher and higher

The light is blinding
Scolding my flesh
This skin that binds me
Starts to fall away
My soul’s refreshed

I forget everything
And just for a moment
I feel free
But just like everything else
It all comes back to me

Losing my breath
I plunge towards the ground
Secretly hoping for death
My heart slows down

This is a story of a girl
Who thought her heart was mending
Her soul, she thought, was free
And, maybe,it was
But her life was surely ending

Ledge

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You’re always there
In the back of my mind
Like nails on a chalkboard
Constantly whispering
“You’re forever mine”
I push you down
I drown you out
I smile and laugh
It’s our little secret now
Try to explain you to  people
They say they understand
But I don’t believe them, I can’t believe them
Our pain has never been and will never be equal
Now you’re screaming
Telling me to “just do it”‘
Wishing I was dreaming
I want to throw my hands up and say “screw it”
Then, I look into my father’s eyes and see the helplessness and fear
I look into my mother’s eyes and see the agony and guilt
Dripping off my chin falls scolding tears
As I take a step back from the ledge I have builtImage